TV - the bane of my existance
Socialize? You mean with real human beings? Why? That would include confrontation and irritation and annoyance. Why put up with all that when I could just sit and watch people, effortlessly, on TV. I can cover all my emotional needs in one sitting - I need to be needed; Will & Grace needs me to watch so their ratings go up and they can stay on the air - I need to learn how to work together with other human beings; two words... reality TV... it's life, but on TV... without all the emotional damage of personal confrontation and irritation and annoyance. You get the picture. Why deal with real people and experience real community when I can just watch it from afar?
Let's be honest, shall we? People interfere with my self absorbed lifestyle. They encroach upon my territory and raise the other wise peaceful noise level. I prefer the sound of my own voice - reverberating off the shallow walls of my hollow life. I am selfish - I don't share. Socializing requires sharing - sharing space, sharing time, sharing conversations, sharing pieces of myself, my mind, my words. I am selfish with my words. I like to spend MY time contemplating MY words and thoughtfully, slowly, methodically placing each word in just the right place at just the right time so that it comes out just right - in MY mind.
I hate being rushed, put on the spot - it makes my brain freeze. My face gets all hot and my cheecks turn red... my throat tightens up, my palms get sweaty, my vision blurs... it's all I can do to remember the question at hand while I frantically search for an adequate answer. I don't need that - my blood pressure is high enough. People are a health hazard to me. I might be alergic. Seriously.
It's just safer to live through the TV - really.
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