Word Experiment

I did this random word experiment where I just started to write down words or phrases that came to mind. This is the result:

Safety, passion, courage, dreams, seeing myself honestly, alone, fear, coward; all I really want to do is sleep away the pain.

I wasn’t sure what to make of this list, but then I began to look at each thought individually:

Safety is something I’ve searched for my entire life; that word may be more accurately defined as security. I’ve looked for it in all the wrong places and am finally realizing that it’s within myself that I become secure and experience a lasting safety. Passion is something that I’ve begun to unleash in my life as of late. In doing so I’ve found a courage within myself that I never knew I had. It’s exposing dreams I’ve simply forgotten about and helped me to define who I am. Through that process I’ve had to see myself honestly for who I am; that in turn has exposed the less attractive sides me. The parts of me that have been trapped in loneliness and fear, the coward inside of me who simply longs to sleep away the pain.