Humiliating Foolishness

I’ve lived my life as if playing a game in which I attempt to see how many people’s expectations I can reach without exposing my true self. Through the years I’ve become less myself and more the sum total of everyone else’s opinion. It’s been said that “losing isn’t humbling unless you’re humble already; it’s humiliating.” I find this to be true as my many facades come crumbling down and I lose the game I’ve expended my life in playing. It is my own humiliating foolishness laid bare for all to see. And so I see myself for who I am and begin to embrace it honestly. It is now that I choose who I want to become. I will not lie about this journey; I am humbly honest about where I’ve been, where I am and where I want to go. This is the beginning of my life; this humiliating point at which I turn and look myself dead in the eyes and accept myself for who I truly am. Today I am alive for the very first time.