Life gets so complicated. People get distracted, people stop caring. Those who you thought stopped caring long ago somehow remind you that they still do. And we wonder… is it too late? Is it even enough? And what are we willing to risk in order to find out? We move on with our lives, not realizing everything it will cost us in the end; momentarily thinking that whatever the cost, it is worth it.
You believe in someone else more than you believe in yourself but all you get in return is a courtesy “thank you” as they walk away. So we begin to doubt… maybe it is too late. Maybe it’s just not enough. Maybe it was just too big of a risk.
And still, young hearts will believe at all odds. So after time has dampened the pain of loss, we find within ourselves the will to risk again. When called upon, we put it all on the line. We are big gamblers, you see. Ever longing to believe. Just believe.
Inevitably, life wins. There are always complications, distractions, loss of feeling. The stakes were raised high and I hesitated ever so subtly before letting go. It was quite the gamble, I must admit. And in my final contemplation, I’ve found not doubt but belief.
It is too late. It will never be enough. And I don’t think I have anything left to risk again.
(sept15)
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