I felt like I was shot out of a cannon today, forced to hit the ground running, ready or not, it’s a new year… ready, GO! I didn’t even get time to set.
I tend to be the proud leader of the stress cadets as it is, so starting a new year with all sorts of new goals at work, including new systems and programs and a team of people all trying to figure it out at once, was seemingly too much for my feeble mind to keep up with. Add that to my never ending list of personal goals and I find myself crouched at the bottom of a very high mountain (why crouching, I never know).
And this isn’t the sort of thing I usually write about. (Add to the list of things I don’t usually do; begin a sentence with the word and.) Apparently this is the day for absurdities.
So here is the resolve to my day. Take from it what you will.
David writes in Psalm 3 (Yes, the Bible and yes, I read chapter 3 because today is the 3rd. I’m not that complicated)…
Anyway, David writes in Psalm 3 about how many people are against him, about the tens of thousands who come after him. Not that I have incredible enemies and as such am taking this to be quite the vividly painted picture of words, but I felt today like many odds were against me, dare I say “drawn up against me on every side.”
Though the circumstances are clearly different, the feeling is the same. It was daunting and overwhelming and maybe I just wanted to cower in a corner and cry. Maybe.
David’s response was to cry aloud, although maybe not curled up in the foetal position as I might have been, but to cry aloud to God nonetheless. And in such, finding and acknowledging that “I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear the tens of thousands drawn up against me on every side… From the Lord comes deliverance.”
Something about those words gave me a profound sense of comfort and freedom tonight that I wished I had realized this morning. It is the Lord who sustains me. I don’t have to subject myself to fear and stress and worry; my deliverance is found is something greater.
That’s all.
2 comments:
Very wise words Amy. Why is it that we get so anxious for answers. When quite often we are not even asking the right questions.
This is very Good Amy. I love Psalm 3 and verse 5 is underlined in my Bible, as well as verse 8 of Psalm 4. They go together! (Since today is the 5th you may have already read it!!) I love that you are writing!!!
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